I woke up after having this stupid dream about calling up my brother just say hi and i start rambing just to keep conversation and all of a sudden i break down a nd yell out I am lonley i think was crying in my sleep. I guess i just miss my family, nobody calls or cares( i know they do and we all have separate lives but...oh well) I love my grandmother and all but it is more effort to talk to her then just to hang. This night shift shit fucking sucks. Everyone is moody at work, and i never fell rested or relaxed. Oh well that was all built up. I am bored(not at the moment but just how i spend my daily life since this movie started) just because you grow up does not mean life gets boring. I hate feeling so stressed that my neck muscles are going to explode. I need a good laugh.

Last night was fun, started the night with raspberry absolute and 7-up, guitar hero, followed by more absolute vodka...and the playboy channel. Went to the toad and then the goth bar and later went back to home base for shits and giggles. I think I was still looped this morning....while i went shopping for tasty vittles.....i wish it was saturday....Me sleepy

JESUS IS BATMAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OR EVEN BETTER............................A FUCKIN NINJA!!!!!!!, SAYS MY MY 20 QUESTIONS GAME....I tHINK IT IS TRUE>!!!!!!!1

nEW yaers was fuckin cool. but someone is dead next sat. It was short but sweet. I am going to bed soon. But DENIM JUMPSUIT is all I can say an d peter pan? Plastic swords. Rock on ...Philipe Micheal Thomas

p.s unbearable........

i am off ............I am done ..........do doddle lee do

....i just hope it is not permanent......... fuck in sheeeeeeeeeeee-ot

well i work until 4am tonight which kinda sucks but mara is having a party sat night, but i guess i will see how the days goes.I really don't care what happens this weekend but i would still like to hang out and and have fun.... the repair man is here now i can wash my filthy drawerzzzzzzzzzzzz


paysh

Yah it has been a long time since I have posted. All of that Busey stuff I could have recorded in here but I did not bother. I need to figure out more ways too calm myself rather than key myself up more. The bad part of this job is the only down time is bed and 1 and half days off mix that with constant stress and anxiety you got yourself a worrying shit-cocktail....?

hello eveybody.....

my fucking back hurts!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hope it get better or it will make everyday fucking hell!!!!!!!!!!!! I got sent home early and I can't even put on socks!!!!!!!!

.................so then we were all of the sudden married. Next we went for our pictures which I hope I did not ruin. We got our picture taken on Main st ....................to be continued.

Well I am back to work to start shopping for which may be the worst(but so bad it is funny)movie to work on. After a weekend of precsion planning and emotional moments I am exhausted! The bbq was fun I still have some battle scars from those damn fun cycles! Mike made some wild gin and lemonade drinks that knocked me socks off. It was nice to let some nervousness out and just be stupid before the big day.

The next day I got up early made breakfast for mike and I and then prepared a speech. Then went to set up at Inferno's. The decorations worked out perfectly! Then hurried back home to get suited up. It was like 100000000000000 degrees outside. I had no air conditioning so it was a little uncomfortable. So we had pizza and beer got ready, got nervous, and got the hell out and headed to Inferno's Bistro. I was a bit nervous( a lot) When we got in position I was like aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! Then a saw a lady in white peeking through some bushes and it was my beautiful bride. I got so nervous I forgot to collect her in the middle of the isle. It was teary at first the it got funny. It was part of the vows ...folding you over, sounded like bending her over! She laughed at something about a seal.......

To be continued.......I got to go to work!

I am marring Cara Dawn Kolt tomorrow and want to say I love her more than anything in this useless world. I want her know that she will have someone to share her best moments with, have a breakdown with, and never be alone if she where to ever get sick I would be beside her holding her hand. She is the most valuable in my life. Love you. Goodnight.

ok I am having way too much fun with my space, I just dont know what someone would say if they read my profile, saw the picture, and the song at once! I saw rob zombies house on cribs by downloading the videos, also there are some funny vids from reggie and the full effect.....oh well
suck it.

aaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr what a shitty day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Feelin fresh and feelin fine. I love this shirt I just got it at the thrift store. Damn jeans are so hot in the sun. I need a new perm.peace.

So... That the end of that. I had the best night, we started out at the Tavern,where i had to where a tiny shirt that says "Canadian girls kick ass" where I was humiliated. The boys were easy on me.Then to the balmoral, where i had my nose practically broken by the strippers anvil booooobz, I got a poster....ooooooh!, Then off to a party where I actually knew some people. This was like the 18th i never had or something.....pooped


Thanks: Ken R, Mike, Fraser, Kelly, Ken C, Shaun, Scott you guys all made my night really fun!!! I appreciate everything......sorry I made everyone wait outside for me

Well organized and thoughtful ,goodnight

25 mins till booze fest 2001, that tis moi bachelor part-tay. I want to shit all over my slacks and listen to Europe's "the final countdown" while sippin cheap draft off a midgets ass! I hope i don't do something too stupid!!!! Like start to cry while pissing my pants in the bar....never has happened but there is always a first......

Sleepy, only one last day of the Sir ben Kinsley movie. I am so fucking tired!!!!. I came home to find two cool gifts from Mathias, two very beautiful picture he had taken....Thank-you!!!! very much. Very thoughtful and kind. Off to bed.

last night was fun considering I am offically getting sick! I had a great din din at Dong Wong Harbour(hong kong)future hangout perhaps? Then kidnapped Melissa and went to Sir illest's good-bye part---tay with cara and mike.(PAMPERIN??????). I had a drink and a half and I could drink another drop. We left just before 1:oo. I feel bad for leaving early. I will miss mathias and felt last night while drivin home how thing are a changin. In a month I will be married to a lovley lady. We got our rings yesterday too. I can't wait to go to Prague....I'm sleepy, I thinks me need more hot and sour soups.

MY CRAMPS FEEL BETTER!!


THANK-YOU PAMPERIN tm

well I on Saturday I had a good time, but there was some weird shit that happened like a taxi goning down a sidewalk, and a idiot goth spilling shit all over us(MIKE, MELISSA,MATHIAS,KELLY, CARA, mOI). Slept all day Sunday. Work has been tough. I am so nervous working with Sir Ben Kingsley but proud to be apart of a project with him. Tomorrow Luke Wilson is on set. That is gonna be cool. Every girl on set is gonna make a mess of themselves when he is there! I hope I make it through this movie if I got fired I would feel shitty. The Director said good job today which was the first time and it was all I needed even if he was being nice, he knows who I am and responds to me. I love you Cara and hope you get beter. All day at the airport...That is it. suck it


hello everybody

how r you's?